today it was great meeting shuwen. thanks so much for the nougats and the treat! (: it feels so comfortable and at ease talking to a friend whose thoughts and opinions are similar to mine.
shuwen, we'll meet up soon k. sentosa lunge! :D i will miss you loads when u return to aust!
is it ever possible to maintain a platonic relationship? i believe we can, even though i experienced a setback on that issue. but im not going to let that affect my stand that it's possible. if only we are mature enough to draw the line clearly, to prevent any unwanted misunderstandings. in the past, i was silly and immature enough not to draw the line clearer and bolder.
if love can hurt one so badly, why love in the first place? if love can invoke hatred, why the word love?
maybe im losing hope in this noble thing called love. i feel im not game enough for it. i lack the courage to trust in it whole-heartedly. it's the fear of rejection, commitment, heartaches, empty promises, breaking of trust, etc.
yea i know there are many other happier things associated to love - sense of knowing that there's someone u can rely on, tender loving care, etc
but i just cant convince myself that being in love is better off than being single. i duno what i want out of a relationship. maybe i've grown too used to be on my own. or maybe im just running away from it. i duno.
in the past few months, i felt my trust in some people have been thwarted. so much so that i completely duno them anymore. so much so that i feel like running away from them. it's an irreversible change.
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